I've stayed away from the news as much as I can, and escaped through books and films from the past, where people can hug and punch and travel however they like. This has led to a form of inner peace, a bubble of me and mine and now, where I can concentrate on my writing,... Continue Reading →
Distancing: Day 5
The current situation is now regularly referred to as 'the current situation'. Pubs and restaurants have been ordered to close, but the government has promised to pay 80% of wages to people who can't work. And I think I caught it. The virus, not the bug. After a week of headaches and struggling to... Continue Reading →
Distancing: Day 2
Anxiousness rather than anxiety. That's the 2020 bug causing me headaches. All my worry dreams came to visit last night: the Titanic dream, of boarding a sinking ship, and dreams about being trapped in my grandparents' house, where nothing changes. I wake up, try and meditate, and start to cry. The sky is grey... Continue Reading →
Distancing: Day 1
I've had a headache on and off for a week. Have I caught the virus? Social distancing shouldn't be hard for a Swede. But I wake up with bite marks in my cheeks from clenching. Today is the first day of an unknown length of time, triggered by the Prime Minister last night. Stay at... Continue Reading →
Monday 27 January 2020. Evening
Keep going, you can do it. It's dark and it's wet and it's expensive and it's hard, but you can do it. In China the new year begins now. You're strong, and you're able, and you've done this before. Keep moving, stay strong. But don't forget to see the beauty.
Wednesday 18 September 2019. Evening
The page that meets me is not the dreaded empty, white. It's full of first draft words that need to be worked into a second, better draft. I'm about halfway through the editing and redrafting of my novella project, and scene is meant to be intimate, important, interesting. but I'm so tired I have no... Continue Reading →
Five things you should read/watch/listen to if you want to understand me
Pippi Longstocking (1945), Astrid Lindgren Jane Eyre (1847), Charlotte Brontë Star Wars (1977), LucasFilms Peter Pan (1904), J. M. Barrie Normal People (2018), Sally Rooney What five things should I read/watch/listen to understand you?
In the word of trolls
In the vast expanse of the open sea of the empty page of the world wide web, someone's comment has encouraged me because it was nice.
To reach, to grow, to break. To be alone. But also to belong, to hold, to partake. To be strong.